The First Distortions 2

At first, the first distortions are one. Nothing chooses to become love; love immediately wills light into existence, and immediately becomes one with light, melting back into nothing. The resulting nothing is higher than original nothing. Nothing condenses itself in order to become love or light. Thus, if nothing were to condense itself into love, and then revert back to nothing, the resulting nothing would be of the same order as the original nothing. But, since love creates light, the amount of existence has been doubled; thus, when they melt back into nothing, the resulting nothing is double the original nothing. The resulting nothing is also more expansive than the love and light, because the condensation process is reversed when the two become one.

Thus the initial reaction between love and light simply results in an expansion of nothing, in which nothing, love, and light are perfectly united at all stages of the process, so that no distinction between them is visible. The expansion occurs in a quantized process of exponential growth.

In order for further developments to occur, there must be the experience of separation. The first distortion is free to choose separation. Due to the nature of free will and infinite possibility, the first distortion, upon moving from unity to separation, may immediately choose to become any experience. Therefore all of these experiences are in fact chosen, and experienced simultaneously. However, the progressively more distorted experiences are progressively less probable, and therefore we may imagine them as being shadowy and pale in comparison to the less distorted experiences. They are less probable due to the fact that the most distorted the experience is, the more the Creator must condense itself in order to become it.

The most probable separation is the separation between love and light. The most straightforward form of this is the experience of love by itself, and the experience of light by itself. Love is experienced alone, without a corresponding light to balance it. Light is experienced alone, without a corresponding love to balance it. Due to love’s desire to become one with light, both of these are unstable states. Love by itself will strongly tend to create light and melt back into nothingness. Meanwhile, light by itself will strongly tend to attract love to itself, with the same result. Thus both of these states are unstable and improbable, tending to collapse into nothingness.

Nonetheless, we can be assured that there are an infinite number of each of these states. We are currently dealing with infinite love and infinite light. The nature of infinity is such that for every infinity, there is a higher infinity which surpasses it. Thus, for every infinite light, there must be an infinite light which surpasses it. The same is true for love. All of these levels of light and love are experienced in the fashion just described; but each level is less stable, and thus less probable, than the preceding one. This is due to the fact that the attraction of love to light, the gravitational force if you will, increases with the quantity of each.

A more probable experience is the experience of love and light as simultaneous but separate. In fact, this experience becomes the focal point for the rest of the Creator’s experience of separation. We shall therefore discuss it in more detail momentarily; but first we shall consider other possibilities.

One possibility is the experience of light as separate from itself. This is similar to the experience of love and light as simultaneous but separate, except that both terms of the equation are light. Intuitively, light as separate from itself is a very unstable paradox which would strongly tend to become simply light. Then, as described previously, it would tend to attract love and melt back into nothingness.

Other possibilities are the experience of love as separate from itself, and the experience of free will as separate from itself, for which analogous comments may be made.

Another possibility is the experience of free will and love as simultaneous but separate, without the experience of light. What would be the outcome of this experience? Intuitively, we might expect the free will to become light, in order to satisfy love’s desire for light. But this would be a violation of free will. Free will is, inherently, free, and it would not be free if the simultaneous presence of love compelled it to become light. So this cannot be how the experience resolves itself. Most likely, rather, the love creates light and unites with it, thus becoming free will, and so the experience becomes that of free will as separate from free will, which resolves itself into simply free will.

Similar comments may be made for the experience of free will and light as simultaneous but separate.

We have seen, then, that most of the obvious, probable experiences of separation result in a rapid and uninteresting melting back into nothingness. All of them, that is, except for one: the experience of the separation between love and light. We had put off discussing this distortion, as it ends up being the most interesting one, which leads to the most further experience.

The separation between love and light is more stable than the other separations we have considered. Nonetheless, due to love’s desire to become one with light, it contains a strong tension which attempts to resolve itself.

We know that when one has a desire, and the object of desire is in sight, then that desire increases. If the desire is frustrated — that is, if the object is in sight, but unattainable — then that desire increases in a much more marked fashion. So this is what happens: because love can see light but cannot become one with it, love’s desire for light increases. This is a different way of saying that the quantity of love increases. This increased love immediately creates more light, so that the quantity of love and the quantity of light are equal. This results in a recurrence of the original scenario, and a positive feedback loop of increasing love and light.

One thought would be that the positive feedback loop would continue infinitely. But this seems impossible; the feedback loop is unbounded, but never infinite, in duration. Rather, eventually the tension will become too much, the separation will be overcome, and love and light will melt back into unity. The ending of the separation, like the beginning of the separation, will occur as a discrete, quantum event.

So we have seen that the experience of separation between love and light leads to a positive feedback loop between love and light, meaning that there is a rapid increase of both and an eventual overcoming of the separation and melting back into unity. Because this possibility is far more powerful than any of the other possibilities of separation, it becomes the focus of the Creator.

The unity which is the outcome of the process of love/light separation is a far greater unity than the unity which was its beginning (that is, the unity which originally chose to become an experience of love/light separation). The beginning unity condenses itself into love/light separation, then increases in separate form, then returns to unity, reversing the condensation and ending up much greater than it was originally.

Because the tendency of the Creator is to reach for love/light separation, we can be certain that this new unity will once again reach for love/light separation. Thus in its turn it will be transformed into a much greater unity. This will continue in an infinite upward hierarchy of alternations between love/light and unity.

This hierarchy of alternations can be thought of as a vibration, vibrating between the poles of unity and separation, or unity and love/light. It is not a sine wave, but a square wave, due to the quantized nature of the transition between unity and separation. A further distinguishing feature of this vibration is that each iteration is a transcendence. Thus it is both a cycle and a linear progression.

We have thus determined how to derive a vibration from unity. This vibration will be the basis for the experiences to come.

Separation creates confusion and chaos. The Creator’s attempts to resolve the paradox of love/light separation result in the output of many random distortions. At first these distortions are always various distortions of love/light. They are minute qualitative variations upon the basic theme of love/light, for which we do not have words.

As the distortions multiply, and the Creator discerns the relationships among them, some of them begin to coalesce into individualized portions of love/light, discernible as distinct, unified concepts. If love/light is the genus, then these individualized portions are the species.

Eventually some of these individualized portions of love/light will collapse into unity. These individuals will therefore become vibrations of their own, subordinate to the top-level vibration which gave birth to them. These sub-vibrations are like stars in the sky, and as they exponentially grow in power they lend enormous amounts of energy to the top-level vibration, accelerating its growth towards unity. Due to the exponential nature of their growth, the sub-vibrations quickly come to constitute the vast majority of the power of the top-level vibration.

Inevitably, the sub-vibrations will eventually give birth to sub-sub-vibrations, and these sub-sub-vibrations to sub-sub-sub-vibrations. Thus the structure of the love/light of the Creator comes to resemble the branches of a tree, or a system of roots, or the dendrites of a neuron.

It would seem that the sub-vibrations are most likely what Ra calls the Logoi; the sub-sub-vibrations, the sub-Logoi; and so forth.

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